Wednesday, February 20, 2008
if you could see me now..
MOOD: saya..
MUSIC: O - Omarion
an thought from the book If You Could See Me Now by Cecelia Ahern:
When you drop a glass or a plate to the ground it makes a loud crashing sound. When a window shatters, a table leg breaks, or a picture falls off the wall, it makes a noise. But as for your heart, when that breaks, it's completely silent. You would think as it's so important it would make the loudest noise in the whole world or even have some sort of ceremonious sound like the gong of a cymbal or the ringing of a bell. But it's silent and you almost wish there was a noise to distact you from the pain.
If there is a noise, it's internal. It screams and no one can hear it but you. It screams so loudly your ears ring and your head aches. It thrashes around in your chest like a great white caught in the sea, it roars like a mother bear whose cub has been taken. That's what it looks like and that's what it sounds like, thrashing, panicking, trapped, great big beast, roaring like a prisoner to its own emotions. But that's the thing about love; no one is untouchable. It's as wild as that, as raw as an open flesh wound exposed to a salty sea water, but when it actually breaks, it's silent, you're just screaming on the inside and no one can hear it.
i've been Tin Nolasco at 21:43
Tuesday, February 05, 2008
now that i'm 20..
MOOD: happy..
MUSIC: Love You Til The End - Gerard Butler
That's 24, actually. I guess i just don’t want my age displayed up there in big bold letters. Nwei, i came up with a list that i believe i should be and should do, now that I’m 24.
24 I should save up. No more unnecessary big-time spending on food and books.
23 I should be more organized, neat, and orderly with my things. Same goes with my life.
22 I should learn how to cook. Hmm. Rephrase that, cook better. Rice and fried stuff are so stage 1. Time to level up.
21 I should be more patient with my pamangkins and lil bro. No more short-temper, high-pitched voice, and raised eyebrows.
20 I should aim higher for my dreams. As they say, dream big, shoot for the moon.
19 I should be more health-conscious. Watch what i eat, exercise more, sleep earlier, and rest when exhausted.
18 I should not lie about my age anymore. So what if i’m twenty.. four? Hahaha!
17 I should be more sensitive of others’ feelings. Sarcasm doesn’t suit well with everybody. More so with frankness and tactlessness.
16 I should never put off doing things anymore, just because i think i still have time. Princess of Procrastination will just be a title i once had.
15 I should be more careful with the people whom i should give my trust. Not only do they have the ability to build my character and me as a person, but the power to break me as well.
14 I should face life’s challenges with courage and determination. Cross the wide Pres Diosdado Macapagal Ave if i have to. Travel to distant places on my own. Conquer my fear of insects? In due time.Ü
13 I should be more attentive to the needs of my friends. They’re always there when i’m in need, the least i could do is do the same for them.
12 I should reconnect myself with the Lord. Enough said.
11 I should be more thoughtful and caring for my family. When i have none and no one, they’re all i've got.
10 I should always look at the brighter side of life. Trials are meant to make me stronger. Failures are there so i’ll try harder. Experience will make me wiser.
09 I should be aware of the consequences of the actions and decisions that i choose to make. Now and in the future. On that note,
08 I should never regret a thing i say and do. That was what i wanted, i should stick to it.
07 I should be more open to reconciliations, second chances, and starting over.
06 I should not base on first impressions when forming friendships and relationships. Refer to previous thought.
05 I should be a better influence and serve as an inspiration to the people around me, in actions, in words, and in principles.
04 I should never doubt my abilities. How will others believe in me, if i myself don’t trust me?
03 I should be fully aware of my responsibilities, as a daughter, sister, aunt, grandchild, niece, cousin, friend, and officemate. I know they depend on me in some ways, so i should serve my purpose in life.
02 I should live life to the fullest, love like i’ve never loved before.
01 I should be always grateful for all the good things and blessings that come my way. No complaints, just appreciation and contentment.
I really hope i'll be able to stick with this, practice all the items, if not, most of it. Time to grow up. And yeah, happy birthday to me.:D
i've been Tin Nolasco at 18:51
