Do you think it's easy being me? Do you think it's easy putting on the act that i do every day? I smile when all i want to do is cry. I laugh when all i want to do is die. I want to tell everyone how my world falls apart each night, when i am laying in bed, with tears in my eyes, pleading with God to help me. I want to let everyone know what it is like to be me, pretending to be happy, pretending to be myself. If it was up to me, i wouldn't be pretending. I would actually be happy. Too bad i'm really not.